Transformation isn’t a butterfly. 🦋⁣

It’s the thing before you get to be a pretty bug flying away. ⁣

It’s huddling in the dark cocoon and then pushing your way out. ⁣

It’s the messy work of making sense of your fortunes and misfortunes, desires and doubts, hang-ups and sorrows, actions and accidents, mistakes and successes, so you can go on and become the person you must next become.⁣

– Cheryl Strayed ⁣

Happy Tuesday 💕 Reminder to forever embrace your mess 🦋

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Embrace your STRUGGLE

It’s easy for me to get to the gym everyday. ⁣⁣
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One of my biggest fears as a coach has always been that I won’t be relatable. ⁣⁣
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And I’ll be honest, lately that fear has been in overdrive. ⁣⁣
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I genuinely love fitness. It makes me happy. It isn’t a struggle to commit to and quite honestly, I have a harder time taking a day off than I do getting a workout in. ⁣⁣
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But hear me out. ⁣⁣
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I wasn’t always like this. ⁣⁣
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I found fitness at a time when I needed it the most. I was miserable in my own skin, tormented by food, and hated my body more than anything.⁣⁣
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I was out of shape, not athletic and started forcing myself to exercise. ⁣⁣
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Now my struggle isn’t fitness. ⁣⁣
My struggle is my mindset. ⁣⁣
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There are days where my anxiety is so bad I have to tell myself to just make to the gym and I’ll feel better. ⁣⁣
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There are days where I am nauseous from anxiety and the only thing to cure it is a workout. ⁣⁣
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There are days where the one time I am not panicked is when I am moving for an hour at the gym. ⁣⁣
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I’m not sharing this so you officially think I’m a crazy, but to be honest. ⁣⁣
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You will forever have things that are a struggle for you. ⁣⁣
For every one thing that seems easy for someone, there is always something they struggle with on the other side. ⁣⁣
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These may change. ⁣⁣
These may evolve. ⁣⁣
But I promise for every struggle there is always a solution, and it may just lead you to your biggest strengths. ⁣⁣
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Embrace it. ⁣⁣
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What is one thing you are struggling with currently? ⁣⁣

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🖤 Self Love Reminders 🖤⁣

It’s okay to say no.⁣
You are worthy.⁣
You matter.⁣
Let go of perfectionism.⁣
Follow your dreams.⁣
Get a good therapist.⁣
Embrace your “imperfections”⁣
Your uniqueness makes you wonderful.⁣
Heal your inner critic.⁣
You are in charge of your life.⁣
It’s okay to not be ok.⁣
It’s okay to ask for help.⁣
It’s okay to be wildly happy.⁣
Create time for “just you”.⁣
You are always beautiful.⁣
Forgive yourself.⁣
Sleep.⁣
Be kind & gentile with yourself.⁣
Own your strength.⁣
You are loved.⁣

Happy Early Valentine’s Day beauties 💕 Little reminder to always love yourself first. ⁣

Honest thoughts on Valentine’s Day… love it or hate it? 🤷‍♀️

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GRATITUDE

Since I was 8 years old, any time I would sit in a chair, I would curse my thighs.⁣
I’d watch them expand and wish so badly that they would shrink overnight.⁣

That became a common theme for most of my life.⁣

I wasted so much time wishing to be smaller.⁣
I used up hours upon hours determining my worth on a scale, plotting my next diet, and calculating my calories, points, and macros for the day.⁣
I hid for years in the baggiest clothes I could find.⁣

For years I truly hated my body and prayed it would shrink. I just wanted to be thin.⁣

I talk about my love of fitness and how it’s become my therapy a lot, but what I don’t always share is how it also became the KEY in changing how I viewed my body.⁣

Fitness was the number one thing to teach me gratitude for my body no matter it’s size.⁣
It was one thing that shifted my focus away from how my body looked, to instead appreciate all it could do.⁣

I quickly learned how strong those thighs I used to curse were.⁣

My legs had carried me through years and years of dance.⁣
My legs had put up with years of restricted calories only to never once fail me with an injury.⁣
My legs help me daily – walk, squat, move, teach fitness classes, jump, run, etc…⁣

My thighs are forever going to expand when I sit down and that is something I’m now very grateful for. ⁣
It shows my health, it shows my strength, and as they continue to carry me daily, I am so glad they never did wither away like I had hoped. ⁣

It’s time to stop hating your body. ⁣
Choose gratitude. ⁣
Embrace your strength.⁣

What is something you’re grateful for about your body?

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FORWARD

January has a tendency to feel like the longest month ever… am I right?⁣ 🙋‍♀️

Full honesty, 2020 has been a trying year so far.⁣

But if there’s one thing that I’ve learned over the past few years, it’s when things get tough – I have always two choices.⁣

I can hide, introvert, self-sabotage, quit on what feels hard, nap for life, drown my anxiety and frustration in chocolate, and accept defeat (which I did for years)⁣

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I can lean in, reach out to the amazing community of ladies I’ve built, keep looking forward, push harder when things get tough, drown my anxiety and frustration in my workouts, and choose to fight.⁣

This time I’m choosing to fight, I’m choosing to honor and take care of my body even though it’s a little harder right now,.

I’m setting new goals and CHOOSING to be relentless. Not because I have to, but because I can.⁣ 🤍

Always forward –>

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