Never in a million years did I think a surgery on my elbow would bring up all of these emotions.
Right before surgery, I had finally felt in a place where I was comfortable and confident in my skin. I had achieved the physical transformation I always wanted, but what I quickly learned was the mental side wasn’t quite there yet.
Not being able to workout like I wanted to and having to watch some of my muscles disappear and my body transform back a few steps, brought up a huge battle of control, that with full honesty, I am just now beginning to tackle.
Mental transformations are one of the most powerful pieces we can break through, but because of that they can also be one of the most challenging.
What I’m learning through all of this is just how much feeling in control plays a role in my anxiety.
And as I’m diving in more, I’m trying to learn exactly how it all ties to my body image, fear of weight gain, confidence and so much more.
I don’t really have a solution to all of this, or quite honestly a purpose to this post other than to simply share where my head is at currently.
My goal is forever transparency and right now I’m working through a lot mentally, but I wanted to share because I know so many are.
𝘒𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘴.
𝘒𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘢𝘪𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘴.
𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘮𝘰𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥.
The best transformation you can ever make will be a mental one and I am happy to say I am a work in progress on my way there.