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𝐃𝐞𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐲⁣
𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐟𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞⁣
𝐁𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐞⁣
𝐑𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩𝐬⁣
𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐥⁣
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Never in a million years did I think a surgery on my elbow would bring up all of these emotions.⁣
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Right before surgery, I had finally felt in a place where I was comfortable and confident in my skin. I had achieved the physical transformation I always wanted, but what I quickly learned was the mental side wasn’t quite there yet.⁣
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Not being able to workout like I wanted to and having to watch some of my muscles disappear and my body transform back a few steps, brought up a huge battle of control, that with full honesty, I am just now beginning to tackle.⁣
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Mental transformations are one of the most powerful pieces we can break through, but because of that they can also be one of the most challenging.⁣
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What I’m learning through all of this is just how much feeling in control plays a role in my anxiety.⁣
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And as I’m diving in more, I’m trying to learn exactly how it all ties to my body image, fear of weight gain, confidence and so much more.⁣
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I don’t really have a solution to all of this, or quite honestly a purpose to this post other than to simply share where my head is at currently.⁣
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My goal is forever transparency and right now I’m working through a lot mentally, but I wanted to share because I know so many are.⁣
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𝘒𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘴.⁣
𝘒𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘢𝘪𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘴.⁣
𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘮𝘰𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥.⁣
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The best transformation you can ever make will be a mental one and I am happy to say I am a work in progress on my way there. ⁣
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