For years I thought changing my body would be the magical cure for my poor body image, but I’m slowly I’m learning it will forever be a work in progress for me.
Body image is something I still struggle with.
It’s something that creeps in when I get anxious.
It’s my coping mechanism when things don’t go my way.
It’s my default to focus on when other things are off.
And I’ve learned no matter how small I get, or how much I grow. I will FOREVER find a flaw.
So I recognize that and am always working towards separating how my body looks from who I AM as a person.
And as I work to be the healthiest version of me on the outside, I work towards becoming the healthiest me on the inside.
I’m learning new ways to cope.
I’m reframing my mindset.
I’m choosing to work towards seeing things differently – even if I don’t believe it just yet.
And quite honestly, I’m learning to look deeper for the underlying problems triggering my poor body image (it often has nothing to do with my body).
Because if you never work on changing your mindset – the external will never be good enough.
𝗪𝐨𝐫𝐤 𝐭𝐨𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲. 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞.
Movement is my THERAPY.
When I fell in love with dance, I had no idea that it would quickly become the greatest thing I could do for myself and my body.
I lacked confidence.
I was plagued by food and an eating disorder.
But it quickly became the one outlet for my anxiety and self hatred.
It brought me joy and community during a time when I felt very much alone.
When I fell in love with group fitness it gave me direction during a time when I felt lost.
I struggled with body image, speaking up for myself,
It taught me confidence.
I found my passion.
When I fell in love with strength training it taught me to appreciate my body for what it could do instead of how it looked.
It taught me strength.
It helped me fight depression and anxiety.
It became the outlet that saved me.
𝐁𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐨𝐦 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞.
It doesn’t matter what you do.
Find what you love.
Find what brings you joy.
It can be really easy to look at someone and assume they NEVER struggle with body image.
But I’d like to argue that almost everyone from time to time has a feeling of wanting to look differently.
And I’ll be totally honest in saying it is likely something I will FORVER battle.
It would be really easy for me to tell you that I’ve completely healed my relationship with food and my body.
Announce that I’ve finally found the confidence I’ve always wanted and you can too.
But here’s the thing…
Life is messy.
I will always be working on becoming a better version of myself.
Of seeing my worth.
Of battling body image.
Of tackling anxiety.
And that’s okay. Because it’s forever improving.
It’s not about never having the thoughts again. It’s all about hot you choose to handle them when they come.
Life will never be perfect.
Choose to show up real.
Choose to show up as you. 💛
“𝐃𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝐨 𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐬?”
I get asked this question at least once a week and I am always 100% honest in saying a big fat NOPE.
I do CrossFit too. I used to feel like I had to hide that, or pretend like I only did 21 Day Challenges at home, but here’s the deal; I am a HUGE believer of finding what works for YOU and running with it.
For some that’s the gym, others it’s at home workouts, for everyone it REQUIRES support & community to stick with it.
CrossFit has become my therapy.
Teaching group fitness classes is part of my job.
Working out at home has been another added way to improve my results.
And here’s a really cool fact, when I started incorporating more of the at-home workouts I get my clients set up with, I started seeing huge changes in my body AND my fitness started to improve.
It’s something I don’t think I share enough and want to be genuinely honest about.
𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐛𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐅𝐄𝐂𝐓.
Which is why I continue to encourage you to find what works for you and stick with it, and it really will be 𝐃𝐈𝐅𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓 for everyone. When I stopped seeing results with my regular routine, I switched things up and added in some of our programs.
And quite honestly I couldn’t be happier with the results.
𝘞𝘩𝘰 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥’𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵?! 𝘞𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘴 😉What’s your favorite type of workout?
I always used to believe life would go DOWNHILL as I got older.
I’d lose my fitness.
Hate my body even more.
Be disappointed with where I had ended up.
Now I CHOOSE to see things differently.
I am nowhere near where I thought I would be in life at this point.
I most certainly do not have it all figured out.
But every year I learn a little more.
Get a little stronger.
Find a little more confidence…
𝐁𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐈 𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐒𝐄 𝐭𝐨 𝐆𝐑𝐎𝗪
Who would’ve thought that time, growth, and age can be a very beautiful thing. Cheers to growing and thriving with time. 🍾💕