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Monday Motivation

A little extra on the thighs and all. This is one of those pictures that wouldn’t usually “make the cut” but I wanted to share it.
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To all the women out there hating their legs….stop.
Your legs carry you through life. They allow you to run, jump, even just walk.
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5 years ago I would’ve deleted this picture immediately. Now I simply see it as a picture that shows the strongest part of my body and now it’s something I’m proud of. Never be ashamed of your strength, your imperfections. It’s OK to show up to the world in a very BIG way. Stop playing small, pretty, and perfect.

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Be Kind

“Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be KIND. Always”
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I still remember sitting across from my nutrition therapist with complete and utter jealously. It had nothing to do with her looks, her job, or anything you may think of typically.
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“I bet she eats cake on her Birthday”.
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…Was all I could think on repeat. For a long time, food was my enemy.
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Holidays weren’t enjoyed because I spent the days surrounded by food and fear.
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Beach trips were few and far between because the anxiety of wearing a bathing just wasn’t worth it.
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And friends were practically nonexistent because it was a whole lot easier to hide my “issues” that way.
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NOW I eat cake on my birthday, my favorite place is the beach, and I have some of the BEST friends I could ask for.
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As I got ready for a pool day with one of my favorites today I was reminded of just how many little things we take for granted.
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So just a reminder to always be KIND. Often times, the things we take for granted someone else is praying for. 💛

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My NEW Goal

I used to spend hours of my days hoping to SHRINK .
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Strategizing how I could weigh LESS, be prettier, workout more, and EAT LESS.
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I was MISERABLE in my own skin and every morning my day was determined by a number on the scale.
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Things have CHANGED.
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My goal is no longer skinny. My goal is HEALTHY. My goal is STRONG. My goal is HAPPY. But never again will my goal be skinny.

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The Struggle is Real…

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Today, I wanted to share something that I would have never had the courage to share years ago. But something I’ve learned is that this is something that so many women struggle with, but no one really talks about, so I’m going to talk about it.

This past month has been a struggle for me, and for me struggle means I go back to past coping mechanisms. After years of suffering from an eating disorder and anxiety, you can only imagine that my former coping mechanisms have something to do with my food, my weight, emotional eating (and not eating) and manipulating the way my body looks.

So, in an effort to control the things that I couldn’t control, I decided, why not control my diet. I decided to change things that were already working because I wanted more “control”.

I decided to “go paleo”. Maybe that would make me feel better. Reality, it failed. All I wanted was chocolate. Then I had visions in my head of looking like the other girls on Instagram and restricting my calories. I ended up a failure, with tummy rumbles on day one, and way more than a teaspoon of peanut butter was consumed.

I felt like a DIET FAILURE.

Comparison. Emotional Eating. And a need for CONTROL got the best of me. I wanted to share this to show that we all struggle. We all have bad habits, and things we fall back on, but they are there for us to learn from.

In reality when we diet, when we restrict our food, emotionally eat, and play the comparison game, we are not in control. the diet is in control, the rules are in control, we as humans are not. So decide to make a lifestyle change, figure out what works for YOU as an individual, and stick with it, with laser focus and tunnel vision.

Don’t get derailed by shiny objects, wraps, and skinny teas 😉