I have a WIDE back that is comparable to a football player.
My arms are CHUNKY and much BIGGER than I’d like.
I have stretch marks on my thighs thanks to a body that grew far too LARGE and fast.
My thighs are thick and spread to the size of TEXAS when I sit.
I struggle with ACNE that could rival a 13 year old.
My stomach has ROLLS and JIGGLES when I move.
Let me rephrase that…
I have a STRONG back and shoulders that allow me to lift my own body weight in a pull up.
My arms are SOLID and can CARRY all I need.
I have TIGER STRIPES on my thighs that show I had a HEALTHY and THRIVING growth spurt where I was well nourished.
I am GRATEFUL for my STRONG thighs that allow me to step out of bed every single day.
My face is MARKED by my smile.
My STOMACH jiggles when I laugh, workout, and MOVE and for that I am so grateful
To all the women who place your self worth on your external appearance…please stop.
You are not a Number
You are not a Size
You are not a Measurement
You are not Fat, Skinny, Curvy, or Chunky
What does define you is your heart, your kindness, your compassion, and your love for others. Never forget that. 💕👯
Always remember where you came from to appreciate where you’re going
⭐ 4 years ago, I was on the constant search for my next diet. ⭐ 4 years ago, I was hungry 24/7, never ate out, and wouldn’t touch sweets. ⭐ 4 years ago, I was overweight, had a damaged metabolism, and was miserable in my own skin. ⭐ 4 years ago, I over-trained, taught too many cardio classes, and was always exhausted. ⭐ 4 years ago, I just wanted to be thin.
Today? My favorite thing in the world is lifting weights. I won’t dare step foot on an elliptical, I eat chocolate daily and don’t really care if you think I’m thin, because I’m happy in my own skin. Times have changed 😉
Today, I wanted to share something that I would have never had the courage to share years ago. But something I’ve learned is that this is something that so many women struggle with, but no one really talks about, so I’m going to talk about it.
This past month has been a struggle for me, and for me struggle means I go back to past coping mechanisms. After years of suffering from an eating disorder and anxiety, you can only imagine that my former coping mechanisms have something to do with my food, my weight, emotional eating (and not eating) and manipulating the way my body looks.
So, in an effort to control the things that I couldn’t control, I decided, why not control my diet. I decided to change things that were already working because I wanted more “control”.
I decided to “go paleo”. Maybe that would make me feel better. Reality, it failed. All I wanted was chocolate. Then I had visions in my head of looking like the other girls on Instagram and restricting my calories. I ended up a failure, with tummy rumbles on day one, and way more than a teaspoon of peanut butter was consumed.
I felt like a DIET FAILURE.
Comparison. Emotional Eating. And a need for CONTROL got the best of me. I wanted to share this to show that we all struggle. We all have bad habits, and things we fall back on, but they are there for us to learn from.
In reality when we diet, when we restrict our food, emotionally eat, and play the comparison game, we are not in control. the diet is in control, the rules are in control, we as humans are not. So decide to make a lifestyle change, figure out what works for YOU as an individual, and stick with it, with laser focus and tunnel vision.
Don’t get derailed by shiny objects, wraps, and skinny teas 😉