There is a story behind this very odd picture I promise… see that flub I’m holding. I noticed it in my bathing suit the other day and smiled.. odd reaction right?!

What you don’t know is one of the few college memories I have is of that flub. I remember noticing it for the first time at school. I stood in my Mitchell hall dorm room for about 20 minutes analyzing it, crying, squeezing, poking, and pinching.

I was starting to increase my calories after years of restricting and I was miserable in my skin… looking back I was still incredibly underweight at the time, but I didn’t feel it.