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What’s wrong with the before?!

What’s wrong with the before? It broke my heart last week when someone commented on my transformation that if that was my rock bottom picture, they were drowning.

Why? Because I’ve felt that way so many times too.

It’s so easy to look at a picture and physically compare your bodies to someone else. I spent YEARS of my life wishing my body were different, smaller, more of this and less of that.

But know what’s really difficult? Looking at a picture and determining someone’s mental state. The biggest part of my transformation over these past 7 weeks hasn’t been my body.

It’s been my mind.

I’ve gotten stronger.
Pushed past things that years ago would have destroyed me.
I’ve rebuilt my desire to fight.

There is quite a bit I will never share on my social media but amidst the stuff I hide is many of the triggers behind my downhill spiral.

Reality is I lost myself over the past year and the half and this program was the first thing to give me my life back.

What you can’t see in the first picture is the insecurities I felt. The sadness inside. The feelings of hatred for where I was in life.

That’s where the real transformation took place. No longer broken. No longer sad. Finally FREE. All because I made one choice to say YES.
And you have the power to make that same choice.
Because true transformation starts in your mindset.
Transform your mind. Transform your life.

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Transform your LIFE

It is TERRIFYING to share these all over again.

Reality is earlier this year I hit rock BOTTOM.
I wasn’t working out.
I was more depressed than I had ever been. 
I couldn’t gain control over my nutrition.

I was a failed coach going through the motions, and when I was first asked to be in the test group for our newest program I ALMOST TURNED IT DOWN.

A common theme that has shown up in my life….
I didn’t feel WORTHY enough to do it.

I didn’t deserve to be chosen. I was the crossfitter who happens to be a beachbody coach. Who was I to get this incredible opportunity?

I decided I had two choices, I could turn it down, nominate someone else and let the opportunity pass me by OR I could do something I have the hardest time doing.

I could put myself first.
Show up confident and proud.
Give every piece of my heart and soul to this program.

Thank goodness I said YES. This is my 6 weeks progress and I’m still going.

Fitness has always been THERAPY for me. But this time it was more.

I committed to changing my mindset. To showing up on the days I didn’t want to. To see things through, not just for myself but for ALL of the people watching, who I would take with me on this journey in the future.

I fought anxiety.
Depression.
Negative voices.
Urges to cheat.
Obstacles along every step of the way.

But one thing I learned….
These at home workouts actually work 😉

That and I had everything already inside of me that I needed to transform my life… what I was missing was the motivation and words I needed to hear every step along the way. Shaun Blokker thank you for gifting that to me. 💛

P.S. Link to our prep group is in the comments! Hop in if you’d like to check it out. Please only those not working with a coach 🙂

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TRANSFORMATION

This Dress.

It was the night before I left for our annual coaching event.

This dress wouldn’t even zip. 🤦‍♀️

I sat on my bed and cried because half of my dresses in my closet no longer fit.

I was headed to a conference for fitness coaches and here I was depressed and feeling the least bit fit.

2017 was not the best of years.
2018 started like a B**** and I struggled with depression worse than I have ever experienced.

I felt like a fraud and struggled to share the true honesty behind what was going on.

Not anymore. 

Excited to share my transformation, truth, and transparency all over again. 💛

Life will never be perfect and neither will I be, so at least I can be honest.

Transformation AGAIN is possible. Starting from the inside out. 🌻

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